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Incomplete Love Story

Incomplete Love Story

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like an unfinished dream, an incomplete story
a letter half written, a forgotten melody;
certain things are better incomplete
like our...

Tuesday, November 21, 2017

You fall, So You Can Get Up...

"Why do we fall sir? So that we can learn to pick ourselves up"

- Alfred Pennyworth: Batman Begins

This dialogue have touched many hearts globally and while watching the Batman trilogy every soul would wonder, what would have happened to Batman if Alfred never stood by his side. Bruce Wayne, who became Batman was as lost as any other soul after what all he suffered while growing up. But Alfred, who was technically a care taker of his family always stood by his master's side and showing him the light, when he fell into the darkness. 

We all have Alfred in our life, it is up to us when we start realizing the fact when someone is genuinely trying to bring us out of the darkness we have locked ourselves into. 

There are things in your life, which sits on your head and you find it difficult to get away with those thoughts. And these are those things, which matters most in your life. But when you know it is beyond your control and you are just a mute spectator to the plays of fate, sometimes it gets on your nerves. 

And what you do next is for the best - to simply try and ignore as long as you can. But everyone in this world has a breaking point, when you are nearing yours; you don't know whether suppressing your emotions is the viable option or letting yourself to spill the poison, which might change the dynamics of your existing world.

This world is nothing but a set of permutation and combination with infinite possibilities and alternate realities. The choices we make defines the equation and the things that we do are the variables with time being the constant. And as they say, time heals everything.

But it will only heal, if you are willing to put that effort to leave things that disturb you behind. Only when you are willing to make choices, which define you as who you actually are and what you actually want. If you are in doubt, then you need to figure it out for yourself or you need to talk to people in whom you have confided every little secrets of your life.

Lying or hiding doesn't help, it may push the problem a little further; it might delay the storm but it will hit you someday and when it does, maybe you will lose the person in whom you used to find solace. Because when you share everything with someone and suddenly you have to lie on their faces to hide something you don't wish them to know about, they will find it difficult to trust you.

And it is totally up to you whether you want to keep lying or tell them the truth, which you always had. It is totally up to you whether you want to win them back or kick them out of your life. And if you want to win them back, it is going to take some efforts on your behalf also but it is worth the effort. Because once you lie, you have to hide it with hundred different lies. It may seem as a viable option at first but then on the long run, it suffocates you.

People who genuinely love you are always going to love you no matter where you land up yourself and in those times you will actually know who are those you want to keep in your life, when you get a hit and fall down. People, who wants you to bounce back will always lend their hand and extend their support but again it is up to you whether you want to hold their hand or you have started liking the fall. Don't push those you genuinely care for you and who are willing to share your burden only to ensure you are doing fine.

There are certain things, which will attract you and make you do things you would have never done in the first place. But you have been affected so much by the charm that you don't think clearly and when you realize, maybe it is a little late. But it is never too late in life. You can change the dynamics of your life, whenever you want to and whenever you wish to. Those charms seems pleasurable in the beginning but they will only give you immense pain and regret on the long run.

We humans, what we are? Nothing but a ball of energy who can communicate and express their desires and emotions. But all this only till the time we are alive. Once dead, your body is nothing but a bowl of ash. Till the time you have in this world, try to make choices which makes you happy without any regrets. Even if a small moment of regret if you have for something you have done, it means it is not meant for you and it's time when you change it and change it for good.

This doesn't mean you will never commit any mistake or you will never fall off the line. You certainly will commit mistakes and you can't do anything about it. But what you can do is, you can realize the fact that you did a mistake and you can rectify it before it burns down your world in to a bowl of ash.

No mistake in this world define anyone, we all do mistakes. When this world is an output of imperfect explosion, which formed the universe, how on any galaxy anyone can expect, humans of all the creations, not to commit any mistakes. 

But you get up, when you fall. That's why fate put you in that place to see how you react and what choices you make and whatever it is that you choose, it defines the cycle of your life until you fall again and again you have to make a choice. That is what life is about from my understanding, it keeps giving you a second chance to amend what went wrong and to bring back what you lost. It is only about making choices at the end of the day.  

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Saturday, November 18, 2017

Memoirs of a loving heart...

"You remember how they show it in movies and narrate in novels, the feeling of being wished for; the feeling of belonging and the feeling of love. It feels exactly the same way with you.
The late night conversation, which never seemed to end. The calls, for which we used to wait the entire day. The morning, which always started with your thoughts and night that always ended with your voice echoing in the back of my head.

I always said that I never felt the way I feel it with you, every ounce of my soul reciprocates the love you have for me. You were never hesistate of showing your scars to me, I was never afraid to tell you about my fears. We both have been haunted with the memories of our past and dementers of the present but holding on to each other has always given us the strength to fight the unknown. After all, not all battles are fought alone and not all battles are won alone.

Life is complicated, yes, if it is easy; it is not life. We always have to fall to find ourselves back, to rediscover the person we are and to rediscover our lost ambitions. Else we will never be able to find our true self, if we don't fall.

But there are also instances when people fall and they fall so hard that they don't wish to get up and they end up spending their entire life in regret.  

We commit mistakes, so we can learn from them. We come across certain things we wish to have but we know it is not worth the effort, and so there are times when we have to make a choice - a choice to define the life we want., a choice which may be harsh but it only gets better with time.

Not even a single day has passed since I know you, when I don't think about you. Your thoughts reside within my soul and whenever I close my eyes, I find you. I promised you when you asked me, what will I do when you get lost? And I stick to my promise that whenever you will fall, you will find my hand to help you to get up; whenever you feel you are lost, I will be waiting by your side to figure out the way ahead.

Because I love you and I know that my life without your presence is too boring to live for. But I will never wish to chain you with me, if ever you felt that you have to choose between me and your happiness, always choose your happiness. Because I don't want you to lead a life, full of regrets. Even if I am not a part of it, I will be at peace knowing that I didn't become the reason behind your tears.

There have been times, when we were struck by lightning. And yes, it scared the crap out of me. Not only the fear of losing you but the fear of you getting lost. You always took the blame, you always told me that you fear of becoming someone you are not and like always even today I say that I will always refuse to believe that.

Because there was a time, when I was lost. When I walked through the same path you are on. And people turned their back on me, pointing out that I have too many sins on my soul to be a part of their world. And I walked that path alone, I learned that there was a lot more to me than only what I was judged for. And no matter what happens, no matter how big the mistake you commit; I will always have your back. And I know you will do the same for me.

Whatever happened, it had to happen maybe to understand our value in each other's life. Maybe it was a test of time to see what we do, when we get struck by lightning. It happened maybe to understand to what extreme we were willing to go for each other's happiness. And yes, I know that we stood strong against it and I know that it will take some time for both of us to move past this but through that journey which lies ahead, I am not going to leave your hand.  

I will hold you and wrap you in my arms, when the nightmares don't let you sleep. I will listen to everything you have to say and I want you to talk about everything that you feel, everything that you think about and everything you want to say but you hesitate thinking it might pinch me. For me, nothing else matters more than your happiness and that's what love is all about. It is not about conquering or winning or losing, it is only about keeping the other person happy and caring for their happiness.

Whatever junction we have crossed, it was a part of our destiny. For I have travelled to time to the future, where I have seen the future you and the not-bald future me. And I remember clearly what your future you had to say to me, that find me when you get lost. Maybe it was only a dream, maybe a mixture of my subconscious thoughts but even if it was nothing more than a dream, I will certainly would like to make it a reality someday.

Don't carry a burden with you for whatever we have gone through. Leave that where it came from and if you are not able to then let me share it with you and carry it till the time it needs to be carried so that one day it is not a weight on your heart. Don't think that I am going to look at you with blaming or judgmental eyes. My eyes only have love and immense care for you.

I know there are times when I get annoyed with you or get angry at you but the moment I see you, my anger diffuses and my heart skips a beat. The moment when your lips curve and brighten my life, I will do anything to keep that smile on your beautiful face. The moment your eyes are filled with tear, my palm is going to be resting down your face to capture the drop of tear and you will find your world in my arms.

In a week, our relationship will turn a year old and I wish that it keeps getting old as you always say, sharab jitni purani, nasha utna acha hota haini; with this I rest my fingers. To coming times, to moments we have spent, to storms we have faced, to storms that are awaiting, let us celebrate the togetherness with just two words TM, which not only completes your name but adds my first name in the puzzle and when we swap these two alphabets, it gives out the initials of our pet name. I know such a bad sense of humor I have. I love you."


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